Day 5 / wound

 It's completely dark right now , only a small glow of light is forming on my face, I'm holding my phone writing this blog , just a minute ago electricity went out . Thinking what happened after I wrote yesterday's post , I somewhat remember about the podcast I was listening while lying on bed then I passed out or we can say slept . 

Electric is back ! , You might be wondering why I'm writing in this wierd way ?!  Honestly I'm confused my whole day was just around very few things but I'll try my best to express , afterall this blog is about that only .

So woke up as usual LATE , then went to temple because my dadi wanted to go . I want to share you something about me and temples or any holy place , everytime people visit any holy place they knel down and pray for something we wanted to happen or get something . But to me the situation is kind of different , everytime I close my eyes for the bhagwan I see nothing like don't even listen or think about something or anything like I don't have any wish while I close my eyes , maybe I feel relaxed while being there to think of any wish .

 Then we reached back home, had lunch and after couple of hours I got a call from unknown number it says hey your father got unconscious in office and we are his  colleagues and we bought him to hospital please come fast .

For a second I felt no emotions like nothing happened , then we reached hospital and all I won't gonna share that all here but after all formalities I was sitting in front of bed where papa was resting and In mind going on a trip to thinking about my whole existence .

Those hospital wards took me 3 years back when I was preparing for medical entrance exam to get admission in MBBS college , started remembering old days when I went to kota for preparation , everything was going nicely but halfway I realised it's not for me and I left that but that incident not only broke a part of me but also the dreams of my family and I still regret that . 

I was staring at glucose bottle hanging on a stand and drops are falling one by one and thinking ,seeing me as a doctor was my father's biggest dream , but sometimes we don't know why and what are we doing . Now I'm staring at this bookmark and a yellow light rays from the lamp falling on it thinking what to write now . 

Ok I think this will be enough for today , I'm very tired coz of the whole day .

See you tomorrow ^_^ .