YORKALAKAR

 Sometimes you don't know why you are feeling weird, like not doing anything like feeling. We all feel like this way I think and that's the reason very few people are successful in this world ( if we consider them so ) because the majority of the population is trapped in their feelings, emotions, temporary pleasures and they regret after the brutal hit of realization.   So it's 1st September 2021, a new beginning I guess. started blogging again, all these days I thought of write but I'm getting lazy AF. Let me tell me about the days I was inactive or I should talk about my today's day, I don't know.  Ok storyteller mode one !!! 12:00 am today, I draw something after a while, I was sitting on my desk thinking about me thinking of thoughts about thinking (damn! this was something ). I observed my surrounding and state and draw that out as digital art. I posted the artwork on my Instagram with a caption ( I like my captions  >_< ). I was so happy to see me p...

Woke up with a headache , even my body was in pain , I won't lie I was irritated to everything going on just because I was sleepy . Dressed up went for some family work . Even I skipped art class .  We bought my father back home and the whole day friends and family were visiting and I don't know what to do , I wasn't feeling like do some work so I decided to watch something , I know you might be thinking dude your father is not well and you want to watch movie . But it was a mixed feeling I was so confused like people are visiting and going so I thought it's ok to be in my room . So I was looking for something to watch on Netflix and decided to try k-drama , I picked "the startup" I don't know about the actors but overall it looks like high budget show and surprisingly each episode is a hour or more long duration . Last show I watched was Naruto and it has half an hour long episodes , So first I thought it's a movie with 1 hour 30 minutes long. As name...

 It's completely dark right now , only a small glow of light is forming on my face, I'm holding my phone writing this blog , just a minute ago electricity went out . Thinking what happened after I wrote yesterday's post , I somewhat remember about the podcast I was listening while lying on bed then I passed out or we can say slept .  Electric is back ! , You might be wondering why I'm writing in this wierd way ?!  Honestly I'm confused my whole day was just around very few things but I'll try my best to express , afterall this blog is about that only . So woke up as usual LATE , then went to temple because my dadi wanted to go . I want to share you something about me and temples or any holy place , everytime people visit any holy place they knel down and pray for something we wanted to happen or get something . But to me the situation is kind of different , everytime I close my eyes for the bhagwan I see nothing like don't even listen or think about somethi...

 In the last blog I had two choices first is to work all night and second to just sleep , And I smartly choose the third way , I planned to take a quick power nap and then I'll continue the work , perfect ? . So I slept and woke up after 7 hours , yes an ideal person . In hurry I quickly opened phone and started working , After an hour or two I decided to ask someone to help me out with this project and one of my artist friends instantly agreed , so we somehow managed to finished the work but I didn't felt satisfying with the work so I texted the client that " Hey it's not working , sorry for wasting your time " and after few minutes that person blocked me , that was understandable but I  realized that how I'm loosing my clients and savings , coz I'm not having regular project , and this thing is affecting me as an independent self-employed artist . This was not the case before , it's been few months I'm having ups and downs mentally , let me expla...

 So In last blog post I said I was in a dilemma , so I figured a way out , I decided to went out and who meet me first I'll go with him , I was feeling like a genius , a master problem solver , lol . But as I mentioned in the last blog about "law of bad luck of sahil " you can guess , not a so good thing happened , I met both the friends at the same place . I stayed with my bestfriend for a while then went to other friends , balance right ! . After chilling and an intense discussion about a unique human species I went home at 10pm.( Just a suggestion , don't have pizza , garlic bread , fries and Oreo shake all at once , rest you know ). I was very tired but I had to do a special work , writing my day 2 blog post which you hopefully already saw yesterday , in case you missed   Tap here  , And I'm really enjoying writing blogs daily no matter how day goes I like blogging.  After surfing a bit on phone I slept . Monday morning woke up with Papa's yelling , today...

It was 5:30pm we were still there , and I have good and bad news for you , so good news is I made it to live session !!! , I reached home at 6:55 pm and furiously arranged the setup and.. my bluetooth headphones were dead , I came to know about this at 7:02 . And now after searching for other earphones I ended up going live with no earphones and I was feeling very very bad to make the people wait to whom I gave commitment . It was my first time and honestly I was very nervous and anxious but the host was very supportive so it went nicely ,By the end of the session I felt very confident and I did one more live at 10 . So was the good news part , now the bad News , as you know I went out of station for a special work and waited , even kept the live on hold for that , that work didn't happened , I was feeling so bad while driving home like I felt an emptiness at the same time a sudden increase weight of my heart , But ya the live healed me . Next morning , Sunday , I suppose to go on ...